Holidays 2012

This year was the best Christmas yet! I got to spend time with all the people I love and it was just amazing.

Every year my sisters and I get together on Christmas Eve and do what we call "Sister Christmas" because we spend Christmas Day with our families. Every year I get us matching pajamas and we play Monopoly all night (I've won EVERY year) and then we go to Denny's for dinner because it's the only place open at midnight Christmas morning.

(We need a better photographer-everyone wears glasses so none of the photos really came out non blurry

Alyse, me, Jessica Rachel)

Well, this year we had an addition to Sister Christmas. The electricity was out at Adam's apartment Christmas Eve and it broke my heart at the thought of him being alone on Christmas Eve in the cold, and waking up alone Christmas morning. (Now Adam is pretty agnostic, as well as Jewish so Christmas isn't a big deal to him) but he humored me.

My sisters were gracious and kind enough to invite him to sister Christmas and we had a blast.... Until the boy started beating me at my own game. He smoked me in Monopoly and I don't think I will play with him again. I think he cheated- I just can't prove it.

After totally losing at Monopoly off to Denny's we went. The staff there remembers us and our matching pajamas and were waiting for us this year- that was cool. We're like infamous on Christmas Eve at Denny's lol

Rachel and I

Bummed I didn't get a pic with just Alyse and I- but I'll make up for it!

It was about 1:30 in the morning by the time Adam, Jessica, and I got back to our house. I have a very old fashioned family so Adam slept in my bed while Jessica and I crashed together in hers. To say the least it wasn't the most restful sleep ever, and I felt like I had just closed by eyes when I peaked at the alarm clock and it was 7:00 in the morning. It was time for this girl to get out of bed and get the food going.

The rest of the day was spent munching on food, hanging with my sister Jessica who I feel like I never see anymore, enjoying dinner, snuggling with my love and just being happy. 

Jessica and I

I am so blessed to have such an amazing man in my life to share not only the holidays with but the every day struggles too. Together we manage to make almost any situation fun. For example, yesterday it was time to shovel his driveway from all the snow we've had in the last week. He was all macho man "You stay in the house while I go be big man and shovel." So I wasn't to keen on the idea of shoveling so I stayed in the house and straightened it up. I put the kettle on so that he could have something hot to drink by the time he came back in. While the kettle was on I went to the window to check on him and saw what a hard time he was having because there was such a thick layer of ice. We were never going to the driveway clear enough to get my car in but we could make a path so he could be safe coming to and from home. (Adam commutes to work via train, as he lives so close to the train station.) 

So, I started feeling back, turned off the kettle, bundled up and outside I went to be of whatever help I could be. Basically I just cleaned the stairs and attempted to chop through ice so he could then shovel it away. That was until I snowball came flying my way. I picked up a handful of snow to toss back at him, realized it was a chunk of ice and decided to go charging after him. He caught me, lifted me up, and spun me. Holy cow he picked me up!!! I can't/couldn't believe I can be picked up!!! Total NSV! 

Total cheesy situation, and no one ever wants to shovel, but we managed to make it fun doing it together.

I love him. 

Confessions

Confession One
Sometimes I worry I met, fell in love, and got engaged to quickly. He's truly become my best friend and I can't imagine my life without him in it, but sometimes I find myself questioning if he's my life partner. We do have different religious backgrounds, which is 100% fine by me. My best friends have a Catholic mom and a Jewish dad and I have so enjoyed being a part of holidays with them and learning about both religions and how they have incorporated it into their girls. I sort of envisioned the same thing for him and I and any future kids we may be blessed with. I'm starting to doubt that now though. I am very Christian in that I don't believe in living with someone before marriage. He's of the mind set that you shouldn't marry someone if you haven't lived with them. So then I just wanna know why the hell he asked me to marry him?!?!?

Confession Two
My eating has turned to crap. I can't remember the last day I actually stuck to my diet plan. I pack lunch, have a healthy breakfast, then I get to work and it all crumbles. By the time lunch rolls around I'm so stressed out I want comfort food, not a hard boiled egg and cheese. One of the really hard working girls left for another job and I've taken on many of her duties. I don't mind this as it makes my dad that much more busy and go by faster, but I worry about my performance going down without as much time to pay attention to detail. I've eaten Honey Buns, Doritos, Combos, McDonalds, Taco Bell, KFC, and Sonic more than I'd like to admit the last few months. My weight loss has totally stopped. I bounce back and forth between 190-192. I really want to lose another 30-40 pounds and I know I can do it. I know it can be almost as easy as it was right after surgery if I just buckle down and eat the way I ate right after surgery. Virtually no carbs, except that which comes from my fruit and vegetables, and protein first. I do still try to eat protein first. At McDonalds when I order a double cheeseburger I always peel off the top bun and sometimes even the bottom bun and just eat the meat and cheese- I feel like that counts for something, right?

Confession Three
I really don't care about school anymore. I'm still chugging along and doing my assignments. But the joy I once felt knowing I was furthering my education is gone. It feels like just another thing I have to do, and I doubt if it will actually get me anywhere in life.... Besides further in debt that is. With the lack of overtime at work I really do depend on my college loans to pay for my tuition, and to help out financially. Especially this round of financial aid checks because my credit card debt feels staggering right now. How sad is it that I feel staggered and weighed down by $2,000 in debt?

Confession Four
My sister and an ex gentleman friend of mine unknowingly connected on a dating site and it took them a little while to realize who I was to each of them. Well, I haven't been around much lately to talk with my sister but tonight I over heard her talking with Alyse about some of her conversations with said gentleman friend and I'm not sure how I feel about it. Isn't there some sort of code that is being broken here? He should know better than to be talking to my sister if he really valued our friendship the way he says he did/does, and she shouldn't be talking to him knowing he and I have been together. It's weird, it's creepy, and just... gross.

Adam loves music and we went to a tribute concert of The Machine- a Pink Floyd tribute band.

A crazy drunk lady took this picture for us. I really do love him in spite of the rough week we had.