Well, tomorrow is my father's birthday. He will be 54. My grandmother is spending the weekend at our house to celebrate with him. Talk about mixed feelings. Since both of my mother's parents passed away in 2003 I really had thought of myself as grandparent-less.

When I was barely 11 my dad's mother had a stroke. Shortly after that she moved to Colorado to live with one of her daughters. We never really heard from her once she got there and our calls were never really returned. Before long my family (mostly my father) stopped trying all together. As I posted in a previous post it turn out fathers evil sister (mwahahahaha) had basically taken advantage of my grandmother and in a matter of speaking had her brainwashed that we didn't want anything to do with her and kept messages and letters sent from her.

Well, now she is back. In a whirlwind two week period my father's twin sister scraped together the money to fly out to Colorado and basically hijacked my Nana back to NY. Dad and I picked them up from the airport and I had mixed feelings the whole day. As a matter of fact that day was the day that got me smoking again :( Not that I'm blaming anyone else, I decided to handle my stress in that way and it is my own fault. I thought I was done with that battle for good, but it turns out otherwise. Nana is staying with Aunt D in a town about an hour away. Last weekend I took Daddy there for Mother's Day and yesterday I came home from work and there was Nana sitting on the couch.

Jessica and I bunked up in her bed so Nana didn't have to sleep on the couch. Needless to say, even without the 2am phone call from the latest love interest I didn't sleep well. Surprisingly enough I woke up refreshed enough.

We made breakfast and then headed off to the Cupcake Festival taking place locally. Now, anyone who knows me knows that my entire life I have hated cake. I don't like the feel of it in my mouth and it just doesn't do anything for me. Well, Nana insisted on buying everyone a cupcake and so not to make her feel bad I picked out one called "Devilishly Almond Joy" or something to the effect. I got it to go and currently it is sitting on the kitchen counter with the others. I'm hoping I can sneak it to the dogs without her noticing.

So far it has been sort of a challenge keeping my WLS a secret from her. I don't know why I'm so adamant that she not know about it but I am. So far we've kinda played it off that I'm doing an Atkins Diet sort of thing. So far so good?

So, it's been awhile since I've updated. Mr. Motorcycle is out of the picture and that's okay. It was an amicable thing all along and he really didn't fit into the future I have in mind for myself and it is what it is. The latest one is much younger than me, at 23. Well, not much younger but in my mind it seems like it could be a big deal. We haven't actually met yet as it started as an online thing, but our big date is planned for Monday if all goes well. I'm probably mentioning this prematurely but I'm excited and happy about it and since I'm not talking about it IRL I figure I'm safe to do so here. (And Alyse, since you're the only one who reads this Shhhh!)

I really wanted to hit 100 pounds lost by my 6 month surgiversary. June 6 would be the date to do that by and I still have 11 pounds to go. I'm thinking it probably won't happen and that is okay. It will have been the most amazing 6 months of my life and I'm okay with how things are. Currenlty I'm wearing size 14s and those are getting pretty baggy. I actually bought a pair of 12s at a yard sale from Charlotte Russe today. They don't fit yet (I can suck it all in and not breath, but no way will I wear them out of the house yet.) I also bought size 12 shorts from NY & Co and a yard sale last weekend. I bought them with the thought they would eventually fit. I came home and tried them on for haha's.

I wish my belly would stop looking like a person who has had WLS and is in the losing phase. Soon enough I guess.

Noel and I have started making our plans for the Vegas Meet and Greet 2013. I'm totally excited for it!

And just for the fun of it, here is a picture of me wearing a size L dress from Fashion Bug. A few months back Jessica and I popped into a Fashion Bug in NJ and all of the clearance items were on sale for $5. This dress was originally $75!!

Time to start working on a tan!!