Well, tonight was the last hoorah with my sisters. I had so much fun with them. I know Rachel may roll her eyes and Jessica and Alyse might get a little teary eyed, but nights like tonight just totally cement our relationship for me.
Some of you may or may not know Alyse and Rachel are not my biological sisters, but honestly they couldn't be more my sisters if they were. When people ask my about siblings I ALWAYS tell them I have three sisters. We're all different and totally bitchy in our own ways, but I love us and am so thankful for each and every unique sister I have.
Tonight all we really did was take an hour drive to an all you can eat seafood buffet. Let me tell you, this is the ONLY time I will ever out eat any of these girls. They make me look like a lightweight every time we are all together and have something to eat, with the only exception being if we go out for seafood. I totally ate 4.5 lobsters and would have gone for more if #5 hadn't been bad. Then again, the shrimp dishes, the crab legs, the ribs, the wings and the prime rib... I ate A LOT! I ate more tonight then I've probably been eating in three days lately. And I love every minute of it until it was time to move!
Insurance company has everything they need to approve my surgery. Now it's just the waiting game. Authorization better take place in time for the scheduled surgery on 12/5.
Oh, btw, Noel got approved for her surgery 11/23! So happy for her. You guys will definitely be updated when I hear from the insurance.
Friday, November 25, 2011
Friday, November 11, 2011
And here it comes.....
The freaking out part. What have I gotten myself into?
I've researched and researched and felt so comfortable with this decision and have been so excited. Now that I'm just a few weeks away I'm a mess! I love my doctor, he's great. Love the clinical staff, they are awesome and so non-judgmental like every other doctors office. Office staff--- well they suck, but hey can't have it all.
With my surgeon I actually have the choice of two hospitals. One hospital is very close to the doctors main office, the other is much closer to my home. I've got everything scheduled and arranged to go to the hospital closer to the doctors office because I thought they would be faster and it is the only hospital in the area Noel can go to. Our surgeries are scheduled for the same day and we are all set to be roommates. However, what happens if my insurance doesn't approve me in time?
I'll tell you what.. Noel will still have her surgery on the 5th and I'll be stuck at that hospital with some stranger as a roommate farther away from my family then need be, with a shower that the other patients will be sharing with me.
Now, if I saw screw it and just go with the hospital closer to me I will have my own private room, private shower and my sister can spend the nights with me. I don't mind sharing a room if Noel is going to be my roommate, but the closer I get the less likely it seems insurance will approve me in time.
Now, on top of it all I'm having that meltdown. I haven't been the greatest at following the low carb high protein diet. I've lost about 10 pounds and it's stayed that way for almost a month now because... I can't keep my lips shut. I never really thought before about how much I eat!! I'm not hungry.... I'm bored.. Or hurt... Or empty and it's a way to feel full inside!
Mentally I am 100% prepared. Emotionally I'm starting to wonder if you can be a negate percent of prepared. Like -50%. I'm such a wreck. And even though I'm going through this whole process with Noel, I'm starting to freak out in a major and I feel alone as I can get.
I've researched and researched and felt so comfortable with this decision and have been so excited. Now that I'm just a few weeks away I'm a mess! I love my doctor, he's great. Love the clinical staff, they are awesome and so non-judgmental like every other doctors office. Office staff--- well they suck, but hey can't have it all.
With my surgeon I actually have the choice of two hospitals. One hospital is very close to the doctors main office, the other is much closer to my home. I've got everything scheduled and arranged to go to the hospital closer to the doctors office because I thought they would be faster and it is the only hospital in the area Noel can go to. Our surgeries are scheduled for the same day and we are all set to be roommates. However, what happens if my insurance doesn't approve me in time?
I'll tell you what.. Noel will still have her surgery on the 5th and I'll be stuck at that hospital with some stranger as a roommate farther away from my family then need be, with a shower that the other patients will be sharing with me.
Now, if I saw screw it and just go with the hospital closer to me I will have my own private room, private shower and my sister can spend the nights with me. I don't mind sharing a room if Noel is going to be my roommate, but the closer I get the less likely it seems insurance will approve me in time.
Now, on top of it all I'm having that meltdown. I haven't been the greatest at following the low carb high protein diet. I've lost about 10 pounds and it's stayed that way for almost a month now because... I can't keep my lips shut. I never really thought before about how much I eat!! I'm not hungry.... I'm bored.. Or hurt... Or empty and it's a way to feel full inside!
Mentally I am 100% prepared. Emotionally I'm starting to wonder if you can be a negate percent of prepared. Like -50%. I'm such a wreck. And even though I'm going through this whole process with Noel, I'm starting to freak out in a major and I feel alone as I can get.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
NSVs I can't wait for
So, I've been reading lots of discussion boards. People frequently are making lists of non scale victories (NSV) they have just had or can not wait to have. So I've decided to make a list as well.
I can't wait for a regular bath towel to be big enough to wrap around me.
I want to cross my legs when I sit.
I can't wait to walk into Hollister and buy a hoodie.
Cute bras.
Cute shoes.
Cute shirts.. Hell just cute everything clothing wise.
Being able to RUN my first mile!
I'm sure the list will grow. But these are the big ones for me right now.
I can't wait for a regular bath towel to be big enough to wrap around me.
I want to cross my legs when I sit.
I can't wait to walk into Hollister and buy a hoodie.
Cute bras.
Cute shoes.
Cute shirts.. Hell just cute everything clothing wise.
Being able to RUN my first mile!
I'm sure the list will grow. But these are the big ones for me right now.
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Birthday, Illness, Weight .. GAIN!?
Well, it's been over a week since I last posted and it sure has been crazy.
Saturday October 29, 2011 we got hit really hard with a snow storm. Totally annoyed by it, since my birthday is October 30 and my mother went to the hospital to give birth to me in a tank top, shorts and flip flops! (Indian Summer, not pregnancy hormones.)
The day started off with my sister Jessica, bff Rachel and friend Nikki heading to Lyndenhurst, NJ for a birthday dinner at Medieval Times. The drive there wasn't that bad, mostly just full of idiot NJ drivers. (I swear in the tri-state area the only people who know how to drive are NYers!) Anywho.. We get to the restaurant and walk around, get our pictures taken and the power goes out. While we wait around to see if the power comes back on my sinus start to plug up and the pressure in my face makes me want to let the King behead me. The power doesn't come back on, they give us free food and send us home.
Back to NY we go. All of 17 in NJ was black. No power. It took us like over three hours to get home and was so annoying. The closer we got to home, it seemed like the power issues there were such as unplowed roads and detours due to fallen trees.
My poor cousin Noel (the cousin who will be having surgery with me) has a 10 month old and her power went out, so she packed up and headed to my house so she had heat for the baby. In the past sleep overs (yes, even at the ripe old age of 27 and 31) were always a blast for us. Well, not so much because I was so sick all I wanted to do was sleep. And it was hard on the baby sleeping in a strange place. I love that little boy so much! In the morning I rolled over and there he was standing up in his pack and play smiling at me on my birthday. Noel made me breakfast and then I think I slept most of the day away.
The power was out at work for two days, so no work. Which was just fine by me since Monday and Tuesday were when I was my sickest. Finally get to go back to work, and it sucks. I really hate my job most days. And those bitchy women I call co-workers don't make it any easier.
I've been on antibiotics over a week and I still feel like crap.. And the worst part, because I don't want to get dehydrated I haven't been taking my water pill, the antibiotics kill my stomach, I get too out of breath to ride my bike... And I gained back like 4 pounds. AHHHHH!!!!!
Saturday October 29, 2011 we got hit really hard with a snow storm. Totally annoyed by it, since my birthday is October 30 and my mother went to the hospital to give birth to me in a tank top, shorts and flip flops! (Indian Summer, not pregnancy hormones.)
The day started off with my sister Jessica, bff Rachel and friend Nikki heading to Lyndenhurst, NJ for a birthday dinner at Medieval Times. The drive there wasn't that bad, mostly just full of idiot NJ drivers. (I swear in the tri-state area the only people who know how to drive are NYers!) Anywho.. We get to the restaurant and walk around, get our pictures taken and the power goes out. While we wait around to see if the power comes back on my sinus start to plug up and the pressure in my face makes me want to let the King behead me. The power doesn't come back on, they give us free food and send us home.
Back to NY we go. All of 17 in NJ was black. No power. It took us like over three hours to get home and was so annoying. The closer we got to home, it seemed like the power issues there were such as unplowed roads and detours due to fallen trees.
My poor cousin Noel (the cousin who will be having surgery with me) has a 10 month old and her power went out, so she packed up and headed to my house so she had heat for the baby. In the past sleep overs (yes, even at the ripe old age of 27 and 31) were always a blast for us. Well, not so much because I was so sick all I wanted to do was sleep. And it was hard on the baby sleeping in a strange place. I love that little boy so much! In the morning I rolled over and there he was standing up in his pack and play smiling at me on my birthday. Noel made me breakfast and then I think I slept most of the day away.
The power was out at work for two days, so no work. Which was just fine by me since Monday and Tuesday were when I was my sickest. Finally get to go back to work, and it sucks. I really hate my job most days. And those bitchy women I call co-workers don't make it any easier.
I've been on antibiotics over a week and I still feel like crap.. And the worst part, because I don't want to get dehydrated I haven't been taking my water pill, the antibiotics kill my stomach, I get too out of breath to ride my bike... And I gained back like 4 pounds. AHHHHH!!!!!
